Reminiscing ...Posted by Sara Ng

10:24 PM / Posted by Sara Kaden N. /

Star is hands down the most generous and loving person I've been blessed to have shared wonderful moments with.

You were always ready to help people out of a jam no matter how untimely. Jam with peanut butter and bananas!! hehe. And you can definitely haul ass when needed. Or, if I need advise (granted, I knew what I was in for when asking you... absolutely ludicrous directions, step by step.) Non the less, you never sugar coated a single thing! That's my monkey.

Today, without thinking, I speed dialed by habit hoping to hear your voice on the other end. Which I DID!! No, I'm not crazy. (I already know what you're going to say.. LOL...I got "crazy" from you!) I got your voice mail. Hearing your voice turned my horrible day completely around.

Thank you, Ashley & familia, for not disconnecting her cell service. There's not a day... scratch that... not a second that goes by that I don't think of you, Star!

My laptop crashed and I was able to salvage some docs. The passage of a journal reminds me of you. We spoke of this, and with this I'm able to be strong....

"I find myself dwelling over *death*
When I died the first time, it wasn't what everybody expects.
It wasn't cold.
There was no bright light to guide me into the spirit world.
I felt warmth and extreme love guiding me.
It was a glow, amber glow. Not the white light people expect.
I wasn't scared or sad. I was happy.
What does that say about the world our physical bodies live in now? Is this a transitional place where we realize pain so that we would be grateful when it stops?"

I know you're at peace... I love you, I love you, I love you! See you soon!~

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